October 2010
2 posts
September 2010
19 posts
一些感想
這幾天很忙。 原本以爲說辭掉實驗室就會輕鬆很多。結果大錯特錯。 我好像比之前還忙。 我想是應為朋友給我的壓力吧。 看到我其他要念醫學院的朋友都那麽努力那麽忙，活動那麽多， 就想自己不能輸他們。我一定要比他們忙，活動比他們多。可是我爲什麽會有這種觀念呢。我爲什麽要把我自己逼成一個三分像人七分像鬼的人呢。我爲什麽就不能放輕鬆， 享受人生呢？ 有時候真的好討厭好討厭我自己。真的好討厭，又覺得很無能。又對我自己失望。
還有， 我好想阿公阿嫲。。。 好想好想他們。 我真的好想回去臺灣跟他們住個幾年，照顧他們， 陪陪他們。 我每一次想到他們我都會偷偷的哭。我好想轉回時間，當初多陪他們幾年再來美國。我現在好害怕好擔心他們。我有時候在想。我那麽努力看書是爲了什麽-當醫生嗎？ 大家覺得我應該要為大家為自己成功， 可是什麽才是最重要的呢？我覺得是看到家人。我想多陪陪大家。
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鼎泰豐!!!!!!
okaygirl:
went to go eat it today. it has been a suuuuuuuuuuuuuper long time since I last visited. AND IT TASTED SO SHUANG IN MY MOUTHHH. seriously.
life is unfair.. as always
This is another stupid rant. BUT sometimes i can’t help but think that relationships are so unfair, not just couple relationships but friends too. I feel like I ALWAYS end up giving more than I get in return. WHICH IS FINE, I just wish it didn’t happen everytime. This just reminds me of things that hurt so much I don’t even want to mention it. BUT mostly, in the most current...
August 2010
36 posts
wahhh
I don’t want to study anymore wahhhhh…..
Anyways, I think I need to chill out. But I feel like I can’t trust anyone anymore. ANYONE. ANYONE. I feel like competition and jealousy gets in the way of everything so there are no real friends that have your back no matter what. It’s fine. I think I’m used to it now. BY default, I’m not going to trust anyone anymore.
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離我遠一點
我只有一句話想跟你說
你是一個不折不扣的瘋子。 我已經很讓步了， 不跟你計較。 不要把我逼到極限， 否則我會讓你後悔的。
離 我 遠 一 點
不要期待我會永遠假裝若無其事，對你嬉皮笑臉的。 我有一天會找你算賬的。
can't sleep T____T
Can’t sleep. I’m stuck between being unbelievably tired YET too anxious about my MCATs. There is suddenly so much going on with school having started and I feel like the world is spinning beneath my feet. I’ve always been quite the unorganized person so I’m still lost with where/when my classes are,
when i should talk to the counselor and other things. I don’t...
hope i do well...
My mcats are in less than two weeks. I’m so scared. BUT I studied all summer. it should be okay….. right right right…. I really want to do well to prove to myself and my parents that i can do it. I want to make my parents proud and to make it so that all that money and time was well spent. I have to believe in myself!! So many people rooting for me. I can’t let everyone...
bittersweet
:( This summer is coming to an end and I feel sad-NOT becuase i have to take my mcats (more like terrified) but because everyone i’ve gotten to know this summer is leaving, or have left. This summer started off terribly and I felt so alone. I lost the courage to “be friends” with people because of how hurt I was. But then…. Shelbi moved in and kept me company when i was...
STUDY
NOTHING more important than mcats :) NEED to get that 35+ ….. if that happens. everything was worth it :) everything :)