can we pretend the airplanes are shooting stars?

Can’t sleep. I’m stuck between being unbelievably tired YET too anxious about my MCATs. There is suddenly so much going on with school having started and I feel like the world is spinning beneath my feet. I’ve always been quite the unorganized person so I’m still lost with where/when my classes are,

when i should talk to the counselor and other things. I don’t really know what I want or need to do. I’m so confused @_@…. Hopefully after the mcat i’ll feel better and reorganize my life.

I need to not care about other people. Don’t expect things out of people becuase they will only disappoint you, rather, appreciate what they DO do for you. I need to remember that. This weekend, what i’ve been afraid of this ENTIRE year is going to happen. Initially, having found out, I was worried and upset. However, within minutes, I found myself not caring anymore. Maybe this is the end of an era, or maybe I just have more confidence in myself. I need to just accept that life goes on no matter you want it to or not. I love not caring. it feels great. After being tied down for so long, i’m so happy to have been vindicated.

I don’t really know what I want to write.I just want this test to be over. please. just let me do well. please please please please please. I studied so hard this summer. PLEASE. please.