can we pretend the airplanes are shooting stars?

I don’t want to study anymore wahhhhh…..

Anyways, I think I need to chill out. But I feel like I can’t trust anyone anymore. ANYONE. ANYONE. I feel like competition and jealousy gets in the way of everything so there are no real friends that have your back no matter what. It’s fine. I think I’m used to it now. BY default, I’m not going to trust anyone anymore.

Anyways, I don’t know what to feel towards anyone.  don’t know whether i should always help out, or whether i should be secretive. I hate that I want to be a good person but people make me doubt myself. I hate it when you expected something out of someone you thought would have your back but they don’t. It’s just all in all disappointing. I want to start over and meet completely new people. Although i know people everywhere are the same and there are mean people everywhere, I just want to start over.

yup. that’s all. I want to go on a long vacation by myself. hahaha such a loner haha