can we pretend the airplanes are shooting stars?

This is another stupid rant. BUT sometimes i can’t help but think that relationships are so unfair, not just couple relationships but friends too. I feel like I ALWAYS end up giving more than I get in return. WHICH IS FINE, I just wish it didn’t happen everytime. This just reminds me of things that hurt so much I don’t even want to mention it. BUT mostly, in the most current case, I am so upset that I put so much care and effort into being friends with this one person. AND in return, he can’t even be forward abot everything and is instead hiding. seriously…… what the hell. Through so many years of being there for him when he was vulnerable, he can’t even spend one minute now to apologize for anything. It just makes me so disappointed in people.

And for the other evil person. I don’t understand why she continues to get what she wants. Is it true that bad things happen to bad people? evidently no. good things happen to bad people. I hate that I wasted so much time on people who end up hurting me so much in the end. I want to get over it, but why does it come up again and again. I want it all to just go away. please. just. go. away. I hate that my junior year was already terrible. all i want is to just be around normal people, instead of ones that intentionally try to destroy your life. I want to start over. most of the people that I love here have left anyway. I kind of just want to leave too.