can we pretend the airplanes are shooting stars?

:( This summer is coming to an end and I feel sad-NOT becuase i have to take my mcats (more like terrified) but because everyone i’ve gotten to know this summer is leaving, or have left. This summer started off terribly and I felt so alone. I lost the courage to “be friends” with people because of how hurt I was. But then…. Shelbi moved in and kept me company when i was alone. Words can’t even express how thankful I am that she did that. She moved in of course for her own reason but partially because she didn’t want me to face everything alone. When i felt so alone, she was there. I think if i were alone, I would have been sad for a longer period of time.

 Then Leila moved in!! And she was taking chem 3b. I loved having leila and shelbi there because we would all study together. I LOVE living with people who are pursuing professional careers like doctor or lawyer because we understand each other. We understand the stress that everyone is going through, unlike last year. I love that everyone works so hard for their goals. I loved how the both of them have such wonderful hearts and are so kind, generous, and all in all FUN!

Then, Amy confirmed going to Japan becuase she received a nice, spiffy scholarship. Although I am VERY VERY happy for her, I was very very sad also. We’ve been roommates for two years and friends for three. She’s very dear to me and I just know I’m going to miss having her around. I love when we send messages to each other and she updates me about her life in Japan. sounds so fun. ALSO I can’t wait to recieve gifts from JAPAN!! HAHAHA. BUT, really, it’s the end of an era.

At around the same time, Rita arrived from taiwan to study abroad for two months. I’ll never forget how easy going she was! She was so much fun! I loved how she really wanted to experience the American college life and joined in on our apt’s drinking party hahaha. And how Joseph took a double shot. hahaha. epic. She was always the sweetest girl and it just reminded me of Tiffany last summer who I miss dearly as well. I will definitely miss hearing Rita/Joseph’s adventures about going EVERYWHERE in san francisco. HAHA like leila said, they’ve been to more place around here in 2 months than we have in 3-4 years. haha. When rita left, we were very sad. The night before, the four of us went to Joshuya’s to celebrate her last night. AND they tried tempura ice cream.

I also love Tiffany and Phia for spending time with me this summer, mostly Tiffany. Although I’ve known her for quite some time I’ve never been that close to her until this summer! She’s truly a wonderful and loyal friend. And I loved how we yoga/tease aerobicsed it every week until towards the end. she’s beautiful inside and out and i’m definitely going to miss stories about the subletter that lived with her hahahaha. and Lauren was a sweetie too and I’m definitely going to miss her when her smartie pants self goes back to harvard. I loved ktving every friday and eating at coriya, then feeling like such fatties after. haha. <3<3

When Leila left, it was truly bittersweet. I’ve studied with her every night until 3am this summer. We’d sit on the couches and just study, once in a while chat and waste time, BUT we always got stuff done. She’s a wonderful girl AND I know ANY guy is lucky to have her :) She’s so sweet and motherly HAHA and she always listened to what have to say. LOVE her and definitely going to miss having her in the living room. When she left, I almost cried when we gave each other the last butt hug.T_T

How can I forgot Lusha and Anna and Avi and Melissa from mcat class. I LOVED studying with them and spend a great deal of time with them and the rest of the studying crew at Berkeley review. haha. They made studying enjoyable and I feel so privileged to have encountered such WONDERFUL, HARDWORKING, MOTIVATED, GENEROUS, GENUINE people who hope to one day make a difference in the world. I will never forget them.

This is a summer I will never forget. When I was faced with people i thought were my friends turning their backs on me or manpulating things that were important to me, these people helped me stand back up and reminded me of what I’m working for. I’ve been working hard ALL my life to be a doctor and I shouldn’t let little rocks on the road stop me. It’s too bad that these people don’t read tumble so thanking them profusely here doesn’t mean anyhing hha. but i have personally thanked those close to me. It really gave me hope that most people in the world are good people and care about other people. Thanks everyone for such an unforgettable summer :)

now i just have to ace the mcat, the test i’ve studied ALLLL summer for until 3am EVERYDAY.